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How I was ‘Dragged’ by Śrīla Śrīdhara Mahārāja and Śrīla Purī Mahārāja (12/05/02)

Dear P____ Prabhu.

Koṭi, koṭi, koṭi daṇḍavats.

How did you come in connection with Śrīdhara Mahārāja’s books?

Well, I was on the Big Island for a Gaura Pūrṇimā function in 1986. That evening, a devotee gave me one of Śrīla Śrīdhara Mahārāja’s books (‘The Golden Volcano of Divine Love’) wherein it is mentioned that Vṛndāvana is for the ‘shallow thinkers’. My mind was blown away and I thought, “But how can that be?” And so I began to read more thoroughly. One step lead to another, and by the next Gaura Pūrṇimā (1987) I was staying at Śrīla Śrīdhara Mahārāja’s maṭha in Navadvīpa. I was there for one month.

In the first meeting with Śrīla Śrīdhara Mahārāja my mind and heart were captured. It ended up being one of the most blissful months of my life. I have attached a transcribe of our first brief meeting with Śrīla Śrīdhara Mahārāja.

I returned to Śrīla Śrīdhara Mahārāja’s maṭha in 1988 just a few weeks before his departure. I stayed for eight days. For the most part, he was already withdrawn into samādhi. The association at that time was very intimate. During those days, I was given the name ‘Bhakti Gaurava Narasiṅgha Mahārāja’ and an eternal connection was established between guru and a śikṣā disciple.

About six years after the disappearance of Śrīla Śrīdhara Mahārāja. I came in connection with Śrīla Purī Mahārāja. This was due to the grace of Paramādvaitī Mahārāja. That association grew year by year and I would go to see Śrīla Purī Mahārāja several times a year and take as many of my disciples with me as possible. Śrīla Purī Mahārāja was a ocean of humility. Thus, he became the śikṣā-guru of many of my disciples, even the children.

In both cases (Śrīla Śrīdhara Mahārāja and Śrīla Purī Mahārāja), I found that their association and instruction was pushing (dragging actually) me forward in Kṛṣṇa consciousness. I felt deeply that Śrīla Prabhupāda wanted me to be there, although many of my godbrothers disagreed.

To get the association of great saints I left everything behind, but Kṛṣṇa is so kind that he has looked after me even though I am very low and unqualified.

So here I am in Govindajiī Gardens, growing flowers, worshipping the Deity and chanting Hare Kṛṣṇa.

Gaura haribol,

Swami BG Narasingha

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