If We Love Our Guru, We Should Love Those Serving Him (08/25/07)
Dear T______ Dāsa,
I read your email and I am happy to hear from you.
I appreciate your desire to want to spread the message of Mahāprabhu, but alone, only with your wife, you will not be able to do that much service. Serving Mahāprabhu means cooperating with the core of devotees. Here in India the devotees are cooperating nicely and many services to Mahāprabhu are going on nicely at Govindajī Gardens, Mulky and at Rādhā-Dāmodara Temple in Vṛndāvana.
Somehow or other, you and V_____ have some difficulty with the leadership that I have sent to run the āśrama and business in Italy and that is unfortunate. But what can I do? These devotees are sincere and serving to their best capacity. So you can try to do something independent but it will be very difficult. But you may also just save your money and make yearly pilgrimages to Vṛndāvana and Govindajī Gardens and do service while you are there.
Kṛṣṇa consciousness is quite simple, but I think that you let your mind complicate matters too much by overthinking and too much calculating. Anyway, try to make your mind peaceful and do not see
the faults of the other devotees. You should understand that if I am satisfied with the service that any of my disciples are doing, then other disciples should not find fault with them. When guru is pleased then Kṛṣṇa is pleased. That is the motto by which we should try to conduct our lives in Kṛṣṇa consciousness. If we love our guru, then we should love those who are serving our guru and not find fault in them.
I am not giving second initiation to any disciple for at least another three or four years. I also will not give second initiation to anyone who is not doing full time service in the āśrama. I have given second initiation in the past to some devotees living outside but they have not been able to keep up the standards. So about second initiation for you we will have to wait and see what the future holds.
Yes, I want to have confidence and credibility about your service, but only steadiness over time (a few years) will give me confidence in you. I have told you many times that I have affection for you and I am now waiting to see the same affection from you. I am waiting to see you become peaceful and follow my instructions to become peaceful and give up seeing faults in the devotees.
I hope that you will go to Janmāṣṭamī day at Prabhupāda Sevā Āśrama and assist the devotees in service on that day. Learn to be humble and love your godbrothers and godsisters. Learn to be the servant of a Vaiṣṇava and that will make you very dear to me and to Rādhā-Kṛṣṇa and to Mahāprabhu. Make your motto “Vaiṣṇava-sevā” and your life will be successful.
I hope this meets you well.
Swami B.G. Narasiṅgha