Kṛṣṇa has Saved You From a Dreadful Situation (08/22/13)
Thanks for the update. You are fortunate to have escaped that situation. What it means is that Kṛṣṇa has saved you from a dreadful situation so that you can fulfill your dreams in Kṛṣṇa consciousness.
But you must not allow yourself to be taken sexually by your unworthy husband or anyone else. You have enough children, so now your path should be straight forward and Kṛṣṇa conscious. Remember, Kṛṣṇa will not save you twice if you repeat the same mistake of this nature.
I think you understand how fortunate you are and what you must do to assure that you will always have complete opportunity to serve Kṛṣṇa and His devotees. Look for Kṛṣṇa in the heart and He will guide you.